Healing


Sue Doessel
Brisbane, March 1998

I spent several years on the long journey of healing from the physical and sexual abuse of my childhood. During the GIFT, I found what felt like an underground network of women. They have found the way inside themselves back to the temple, the old, old temple where the Feminine is sacred. My inner being saw that it was safe and she knew she belonged there.
When her time came, in some wordless sense my inner child told, she let the energy flow into hurt places. During the rite I felt as if I was way way back in a different realm and a different time, yet connected to the present through the Guide's eyes. After my rite, I was in an exquisitely fragile state of mind, with immense gentleness to myself in every cell of my body and subtle waves of energy flowing through my genitals. I didn't want to speak or open my eyes in case I lost it. I didn't know such a gentle state existed, or indeed it was possible to adopt such a gentle attitude to myself. It was the antithesis of violence and violation.